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30 year old health care specialist with a healthy sense(so I keep telling myself on a daily basis) of humor that has been actively trading since 2001 and realized in May 2009 that the U.S. equity markets are rigged and probably have been, when deemed necessary, for a hundred years. Stopped... More
  • A Tribute to the Men and Women 0 comments
    May 30, 2010 11:41 AM
    (written in 2006)

    I sit here in Florida, 27 years of age, and I truly believe that there are 3 types of people in this world.

    A gambler, a TRUE gambler, does not understand the simple, pure and innocent dreams of an average man or woman. I will turn 30 soon and I am so far from my friends' day to day realities. Men or women are looking for things to make them happy, whether it be another man or woman in their life, a peaceful homelife or a dream of a better tommorrow for them and/or their families. They are content with seeing a rock concert on a Friday night at the local stadium or taking their dog to a dog park to watch them interact with other dogs. That gives them a sense of satisfaction, I ASSUME.
    I, 27 watch other families in their tiny houses with their low paying jobs and seemingly menial existences, and I wonder how they can stand to look at themselves. Can they really be so content? O are they dying inside? NOW, before you get the wrong idea, a gambler does not think he/she is any better, but HE/SHE would kill themselves before they became one of those people. TRUE gamblers are so stobborn and addicted they can not see themselves as anyone else than someone who would put everything on the line at any given moment, if they believe they have an edge. PATHETIC as well. SO, I sit here alone in a friends house, typing, all alone in my every day thoughts. I am single, have a decent  job and could not imagine a life where betting was not a big part of. I honestly don't know if my closest friends and family are aware of my problem.  Not an addiction to gambling as I don't make a myriad of bets, but a mindset which is constantly looking for the edge.  Now everyone I know believes I have money. I've earned 7 figures in the runup from 02'-05' and gave most of it away after multiple Charlie Sheen moments ("Who the hell am I?") But now I've made 6 times my money since 08/05 and I might as well sell my bed because the game has started again and sleep has and will continue to become a distant memory. Who do I know that I can relate to? Nobody, that's for sure. I am betting close to 600k that we will see a market correction this summer. Do I have nothing better to do? Or am I so afraid of being a 'REGULAR PERSON" that I hide behind the bet? I stopped playing poker and recently realized why. When your betting 600k, a 200 dollar hand just doesn't seem to matter now does it? My colleagues are making ends meat, that's for sure. But some of my friends at work sure do wonder how I am able to take off for South America for a month. Or where the different sports cars come from.  I had at one point three cars.  That's not the dream one might think it is, because no one I knew had more than one.  I volunteer, cooking for Ronald Mcdonald House families and donate time to the United Way. I fit in where ever I go, the funny guy I am, but I always need to "go back to my bets" before too long.

    If you think I am bragging you are missing the point (and might need some help yourself, mind you). Most people would be happy with 6 times in 12 months, but TRUE gamblers never are. You build, build, build, and keep betting more, more, more and no matter how successful you are, YOU CAN LOSE IT ALL ON THE VERY NEXT BET. A TRUE gambler and a reckless one is conditioned that way. I remember betting long everything I had on VCLK and AQNT in 2002 that their earnings would beat. The stocks kept falling and I kept margining more and more until I was throwing up in the bathroom 10 minutes before the reports came out, having 10 Charlie Sheen moments a minute-check the tape that day-the STOCKS KEPT FALLING- it was unbelievable.   Against all sane reason I kept buying........................................

    Will I ever have a normal life?
    Maybe I'll just leave that to the men and women.

    I don't want advice, I JUST WANTED TO TELL MY TALE.

    Mr. West
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